College

Well hello!!

Okay, sad story, i didn't get into asasi tesl uitm. YES I CRIED. A LOT.
Good thing is, before the UPU results were out, i've already get a tawaran into kptm kl in the same course but of course it's not asasi/foundation. It's diploma. Yea i don't really care tho.

So, it's 6 June today, i have approximately 14 days before going into the new phase of my life.
Well i don't expect much from the kptm kl i'm dead serious because people taking about the bad hostel the small classroom blah blah blah i don't wanna give a damn. I just want to focus on my future in being the coolest english teacher that ever being born in Malaysia (my grammar is not perfect AT ALL because i've been a corpse for 6 months with no english novels with me so don't expect much from this blog haha)

Well for now, i've already finished 10% of the preparations. My mara essay was done by last week but i have no effort to type it in this dumbass laptop. AND i still didn't go to do a medical checkup what is wrong with me seriously.

SO, I JUST FOUND AN EXTRA MEXTRA BENEFICIAL CHECKLIST FROM THIS BLOG
I'll just copy paste it here. credit to Shasha Anuar :D
Actually i take it illegally. SORRY OWNER-nim

~ Dompet ( penting! sebab ada kad pengenalan, kad ATM, lesen, cash dan gambar family uollss hehehe...)
~ Laptop
~ Handphone
~ Earphone
~ Pendrive
~ Charger (Handphone dan laptop)
~ Al-Quran dan Surah Yassin ( Wajib bagi yang beragama Islam!)
~ Cermin mata atau lens (Ni yang pakai glasses lah..)

~ Baju Kurung
~ Telekung
~ Sejadah 

~ Kemeja
~ T-shirt
~ Cardigan
~ Blouse
~ Slacks
~ Track Pants
~ Pajama
~ Jeans
~ Pakaian dalam
~ Tudung
~ Anak tudung
~ Stokin
~ Kain batik ( Ni untuk mereka yang gang dengan sayalah hehehe...)
~ Tuala
~ Kasut ke kelas
~ Kasut sukan
~ Sandals

~ Brooch
~ Tali pinggag
~ Jam tangan (I tak biasa guna jam tangan =P)
~ Jam loceng (Alarm hp pun okay ^^,)
~ Beg tangan
~ Beg ke kelas
~ Alat tulis
~ Kalkulator
~ Kamus

 ~ Sabun basuh kain
~ Gayung
~ Baldi
~ Shower cream/ sabun mandi
~ Berus gigi
~ Ubat gigi
~ Pencuci muka
~ Shampoo
~ Conditioner
~ Bakul kecil (Untuk simpan shower cream dan sewaktu dengannya hehehe...)
~ Berus kain ( jangan harapkan mesin basuh kat kolej tu sangat! ingat kolej tu sama kat rumah uollss???, Hmmmm.... bila lagi nak basuh baju guna tangan uollss tu?? Jangan mengada sangat! hehehehe... mengimbau kembali pengalaman memula masuk hostel yang agak liat basuh baju secara manual! Jimat kot guna tangan ni, siap boleh exercise lagi =P)
~ Pewangi/ pelembut kain (tak kesahlah, jenama apa pun hehehe...)
~ Hangers (Sangat penting khususnya bagi mereka yang malas nak lipat kain =P)
~ Laundry bag
~ Kain basahan

~ Deodorant
~ Cermin
~ Lotion
~ Pin rambut/ getah rambut
~ Sikat
~ Perfume
~ Pads dan Pantiliners ( Budak laki abaikan je benda ni hehehe...)
~ Shavers
~ Pemotong kuku
~ Cotton bud
~ Tisu paket ( Untuk dibawa ke kelas)
~ Compact powder
~ Tisu basah
~ Lipbalm
~ Maskara
~ Eyeliner
~ Makeup set
~ Makeup remover
~ Toner
~ Sunblock
~ Moisturizer

~ Bantal
~ Cadar
~ Sarung Bantal
~ Selimut
~ Ubat-ubatan
~ Payung ( Kalau kat UMS, mereka sediakan)
~ Selipar toilet
~ Iron
~ Kertas F4/ kertas kajang
~ File
~ Mug, pinggan, sudu, garfu, mangkuk
~ Heater
~ Stok makanan ( Instant noodles, biskut, gula-gula, instant drinks dll.)

OKAY DONE COPY PASTE YES IMMA LAZY GIRL DON'T YOU EVER GET INTERESTED IN ME THANK YOU

BYE 

FRIENDS

IT'S THROWBACK TIME!!!!

Okay there's several moments in the astech that i will keep in my mind until forever because yea of course you will not get those memories simply anywhere . I am focusing on astech because we were ALWAYS together unlike Ibrahimians where we're together in class and going home and lost contact at home and the next day still together. so there were no such dramatic memories as in astech.

So, during my form 4, i decided to moved into a boarding school. My dad chose it for me actually. But i'm a good daughter so i just follow the lead. There, i was assigned to the class 4Perdagangan and to the dorm G5. I am being all arrogant and bitchy when i packed up my things in the hostel.

After a week living in a hostel, i found my dorm mates are way too cool. When we finished classes, one of us (Dayah) will come into the hostel singing to malay songs and all of us will continue (WE JUST MET FOR A WEEK AND WE WERE THAT CRAZY STUPID). After almost two weeks living in the hostel i found the hostel were damn cool. no mama nagging. no mama asking me doing chores. NO NO NO IT'S ME AND ONLY ME(this shows how lazy i was as a daughter)

WELL THE FRIENDS ARE COOL THO.

One day when we're all chatting, i noticed someone who was unfamiliar sitting at the corner of the bed and i asked my friends " sapa tu? " then jahara replied "ouh tu nama dia razana. dia side A tp nak kawan ngan kita" ohhh okay. Then we become friends. my bestfriends there were Dayah Zati Jahara Razana and Aida. Yes we were very close to each other.

During the end of the year, Jah was having a conflict with my classmates and we decided to fight. OK this is REAL memories. you know just because of one stupid silly man (ILIAS) more less 10 girls were fighting. He sure were using love spells HHAHAHAHA. The bicker doesnt went overboard but still, it was hectic hahaha everyone wanna talk. And sarcaticism were all over the place gosh i miss that moment. THAT WAS SO IMMATURE OF US I AM SERIOUS.

After done dealing with the fights, we got news that Razana will move to Shah Alam the next year and we were all so sad and stuff haha. The bond is weirdly strong because we've just met less than 1 year and we cry like there's no tomorrow.

During my form 4 tho, i get to know this senior named Izwan. Yeah i sure have a crush on him back then lol. How we met? I have such a cool story on this. This happened during the spm trial. Iwan and his friends were using my classroom as their study port and Iwan always sat on my place. But that's not it. It started when i found my desk were all clean and neat the next morning. During the night, i knew my desk were in a mess. So of course i thought Iwan who neat it up right? And there's a sampul raya left under the desk (I THOUGHT IWAN WHO LEFT IT THERE BUT IT TURNS OUT TO BE AININ. I KNOW THE TRUTH DURING MY FORM 5 YEAR) like i said, I thought Iwan left it there so i wrote some thankful message on the sampul raya and turns out he replied by putting a piece of reply in the sampul. That's our first connection -letters-. Well i have to admit this, i still have those letters with me hahahahaha. And a few weeks later, Iwan take my phone number from my notebook like LOL HE MAKES THE FIRST STEP EVERYONE but yea i did not aware that he was just main main. When i told him that i like him by putting out my all courages, his reply were so casanova. So i end up thinking he did not after me AT ALL. It was me who perasan all way around. but after a few weeks, he hye me.
*funny facts #1 - when iwan first called me, i'm having a high fever for a day.
*funny facts #2 - we were never talk face to face that was i told ya he hye me.
So, the conclusion is i was being played. Haha. I realized it few months ago that i was being played. All this while i was waiting for him to say "Actually i like you too". Stupid meyh.

END THE 2013 THROWBACK.
NOW IT'S THE 2014 THROBACK.

I must admit the most memorable thing for me is Afiq Shadli. Wanna know why?
Because he is the first ever guy who actually merajuk with me to the deep ocean.
ok cerita ni ceni, masa form5 kami masuk pertandingan drama bahasa inggeris.
Perancangan awal was dayah jadi laki but nampak mcm tak best so kami berangan berangan terbayang muka afiq sbb dia mcm one of minam kat sekolah la and it turns out dia sekelas ngan zati so kami suruh la zati tanya dia nak ka berlakon ngan kami ka tak tengok2 dia nak and dia ajak dua org lagi kawan dia Adam and Ikhmal/Mon.

 And yg lawak the drama mmg turns out horrible gila sebab suara afiq slow mic tak kuat lupa script semua lah. Yg bestnya time rehearsal malam tu memang cantik dah. kira kalau tak juara, naib juara la sekali spoil mcm2 dengan sound system takmau kerjasama la hahahah tp still okay la we brought back memories with us.

So after the drama ended kami tetiba jadi rapat. i mean geng2 drama team ni la. boleh kata hari hari lepak sekali. and kami buat group kat wechat. dari situ la afiq merajuk ngan aku. afiq ni dia anak org kaya so dia x reti sembang tau. so bila dia masuk akan jadi awkward lain la adam, adam mmg pandai sangat melayan hahahah dasar playboy. so aku pon mcm buat2 la halau dia mcm "afiq xyah masuk ah blah ah" camtu la lebih kurang. aku ingat dia tau yg aku main2 sebab kalau aku buat camtu kat adam, adam akan reply "xmau kawan ash nak majuk" hahahaha dia memang gedik level99999 pastu aku TAK PERASAN langsung yg si afiq ni merajuk ngan aku dah seminggu sbb depa ni kalau jumpa tepi jalan ikut mood, ada mood nak teguq depa teguq la. so aku pon x ambik serius la bila dia x teguq aku langsung

sampai la time weekend tu kami lepak geng2 G5 la sekali depa nampak afiq pastu depa panggil la afiq , afiq kalih muka pastu bila aku join the crowd dia blah terus. and aku still tak suspect apa2 aku ingat dia gaduh ngan makwe ka tension exam ka, pastu zati la yg perasan, sekali kami jumpa adam kat atas kelas kami tanya la adam, pastu adam tengok aku lama, dia kata " sbb hg la tau dak" time tu tak bohong jantung aku mcm nak luruh lembik lutut sbb aku xtau apa salah aku HAHAHAHA pastu kami soal siasat adam sampai la adam kata " ash ja yg kena pujuk afiq tu" time tu aku lagi la meroyan sbb aku tak penah pujuk orang laki merajuk. adam yg dok main2 tu pon aku x penah pujuk, zati ja yg rajin dok pujuk.

So zati pon mengajaq la aku kata aku kena berlembut ngan afiq tu dia tu sensitif hahahaha serius lawak aku first time deal ngan laki merajuk. aku memang benci gila orang laki yg merajuk ni sbb ORANG POMPUAN JA YG BOLEH LAKI TAK BOLE. NAMPAK GAY SANGAT OKAY.

One day tu kami keluaq outing depa kata la kat aku kalau aku jumpa afiq aku pujuk dia aku pon okok la malas dah nak dengaq depa berletiaq seminggu kat aku. Jalan dekat depan jakel sekali wani approached kata " ash kenapa afiq kat situ? " aku time tu buat tak kesah pastu zati mcm AFIQ SHADLI KAAAA? pastu wani mcm ya la hampa taktau ka bukan hampa rapat ngan dia ka? Pastu zati usha aku semacam , zati kata "sekarang" wey wey wey mmg aku setuju tapi aku x expect nak jumpa dia secepat tu.

Yang zati pon gigih dok panggil afiq tu well nampak la dia mmg avoid aku sbb dia ignore ja wadahek , last2 aku jerit kuat gila nama dia baru dia tengok kami pastu mai kat kami. Yang lawak dia mai mai "HAA RASA BERSALAH KA?!" YA ALLAH waktu tu laju ja tangan aku mcm nak tumbuk dia nak tumbuk zati ni la sebab jangan pujuk org laki merajuk perangai cam haram. pastu kami pon berbaik lah walaupon selalu gaduh jugak. hahahah.

Yg form 5 aku stop dekat yg afiq ni lah sbb letih haha. Afiq i just want you to know kalau hg ada tak puas hati kat mana2 pompuan habaq kat aku, mai aku ajaq hg cara nak overcome hahaha.

YOUR FRIENDSHIP IS A SPECIAL GIFT,
GENEROUSLY GIVEN,
HAPPILY ACCEPTED,
AND DEEPLY APPRECIATED.

LOVE

Yes im going to talk about love.
As most of my friends know, i have never been deeply in love with my opposite gender.
Why?
I think it is probably due to my boyish attitude so most of my guy friends treat me like an actual guy. Well i have the name Hakim in my ID .
AND most of my guy friends have high elegant taste in choosing their love one so imma not qualified to be in the list. AT ALL.
But i think the main reason is i am not pretty or attractive or charming or cute at all. End of curiosity.

So, sad high school life of mine when i have no one crush on me i have no boyfriend, well a high school student should at least have one. With the mindset of getting married after i have my own belongings with my own money, I am confidently going to college. Basically not yet. it is a month from now haha shit. And suddenly people around me are actively talking about "You will trapped into college love stories i am sure how not attractive you are you will." And i am scared. Well you know if i REALLY trapped, i am a total dickhead so i think i will not think wisely. Please pray for me not to fall in love with any man from college treat them exactly how you treat your high school friends. And they will never fall for me. i guarantee.



THIS IS A RUBBISH POST GAHHHHH

Interview Asasi TeSL 2015 (My Scary Experience)

Hello!

Ok so yesterday i went to UiTM Merbok for interview in Asasi TeSL.
The written test is hell hard i tell ya.
The 15 grammar question is way too hard that i can't adapt to it.
They talked about desertification WHAT THE HELL IS THAT?
I read the text countless times that i have no time for my essay because they only give us 1 hour to answer both grammar and essay question.
But yeah luckily, the essay is quite easy.
The question is The most important criteria in choosing a good local university.
Well i make it but not approximately 250 because when i was half way for my essay, the lecturer told us that we have another 10 minutes and i became hell nervous that i forgot the rest of the points. Curse me please!!!

After we went out from the not so examination hall, the lecturer told that we need to get ready for our interview, and guess what? I AM THE FUCKING FIRST CANDIDATE FOR PANEL 2.
OMG when the interviewer told us to arrange our photocopy here and there and i was miserable as hell, they say loudly Aina Syaza Hakim?!
And i raised my hand and was like ya that cool bitchy name is mine!
They said i can come in and i still in the middle of arranging my documents that i took it all and let them settle it by themselves but they were like it's okay we understand because you're the first candidate.
So i handed them those files and the told me to sit down.

Here's how the interview begins.
IVER : Are you nervous? (basically i am not that nervous but her voice is way too soft that i was like huh what? then she repeated)
Me : Yeah a little bit since i'm the first one hehe.
IVER: How's the exam just now?
Me : The essay is not that hard but the 15 grammar questions is quite difficult.
IVER : Okay so, tell me a little bit about yourself.
Me : my name is bla bla i'm from bla bla i graduated from bla bla my hobby is bla bla bla
IVER : That's all? Ouh so, you're from Teknik school?
Me : Yes.
IVER : So, do you live together with your parents? (this time i can't hear again and i was like huh what? again and she repeated again ugh CURSED MY EAR!!!!)
Me : Yes i am living with my parents.
IVER : How do you help them?
Me : *startled a little because i don't expecting that question* Since i'm unemployed, i always do housework (supposed to be house chores ugh cursed stupid nervous me again) and cook for lunch.
IVER : You really cook?
Me : Yes because i will starving if i didn't cook.
Both the IVERs laughed at me
IVER : So you only cook for yourself?
Me : Since i cooked for myself, i make it double for my parents too because my mom work as a teacher and my dad always came home late, so yeah, i'm cooking for lunch and sometime for dinner.
IVER : Ok, you also help your parents take care of your siblings?
Me : No because both of my brother live in hostel and my sister go to school with my mom so, basically i'm not taking care of them.
IVER : Okay since when you are interested in english?
Me : Since i was in form 1.
IVER : How do you increase your english knowledge?
Me : I watched english (i supposed to say american curse me again) youtuber , watch movies without subtitles and read novels.
IVER : Does those things helped?
Me : Yes. Much.
She was looking at my name and was like
IVER : Your name is Aina Syaza Hakim (weird face) Bt Mohd Said? Hakim is your name? (me say yes) And Mohd Said is your dad's name? (me say yes again). Why Hakim? (THIS IS ALSO UNPREDICTABLE QUESTION!)
Me : Haha i don't know but all my siblings have hakim in our name
IVER : Including female?
Me : Yes of course (this time i am feeling like screaming I AM FUCKING FEMALE CAN'T YOU SEE?!)
IVER : What is the meaning of Hakim? (GAHHHHH ANOTHER WEIRD QUESTION I AM MENTALLY NOT PREPARED AND MY HANDS STARTED TO FREEZE)
Me : ummmmm (thinking bijaksana apadia tah dalam english) Brilliant. yes, brilliant.
IVER : Ouh yes, bijaksana.
Me : arrr yes.
IVER : Okay can you tell me about the novel you've read recently? (I am fucking nervous my hands is ice cold and i was just thinking of going out of the room and she asked me THIS question?! I am mentally died that time)
Me : (i took about a minute thinking this time and i asked her again whether she REALLY wanted me to tell her the synopsis of novel and she said yes because i mentally died just now like i said and i ended up telling about Sophie Kinsella I've Got Your Number and i talked much that the interviewer were both shocked and the laugh at me then one of them repeat my story and say she didn't understand i told her the story is not finished yet and she wanted me to hurriedly finished my story hahahahaha damn)
IVER : Okay, what did you apply for upu?
Me : i don't really remember but all have english such as pengajian bahasa inggeris and all that.
IVER : Okay do you have any question? (FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
Me : When will i know the result?
IVER : 2nd week of May.
Me : okay thank you.
I'm about to stand up then they asked AGAIN.
 IVER : If you got both Asasi Tesl UiTM and Pengajian Bahasa Inggeris UIAM which one will you choose?
Me : UiTM of course
Both IVERs : Eyyyyyyyyy hahahahahahah really?
Me : Yes i will choose UITM !

Both of them nodded and say thank you and handed me my documents back and i shook their hands and i walked away.
AND they still laughed (GOSHHHHH I DON'T KNOW MY FATE JUST BY THEN I'M GOING TO DIE I AM NOT GETTING INTO THIS ASASI CURSE ME) - that was my thought that time

Okay i am not clinging into this asasi anymore because i don't know. i'm not having high hopes by now. But still, if i got into this Asasi i will be the happiest girl on earth.

OKBYE. Capek udah gue hahahahahaha

Mario Badescu Goals

Hello!

So, i happened to found this sort of cool brand, Mario Badescu.
It is originally from the United States.
I don't know, few of brands had attracted me but they are way too pricey such as Tebe and all that expensive stuffs.
So i found Mario and i thought of having a quick check on it.
Well, this brand is amazing.
The testimonials are all impressive
So i decided to find any product that maybe i am interested to
And i found THIS!

IT'S A DAMN FACE MIST OMAIGOD I'VE BEEN SEARCHING FOR CHEAP FACE MIST EVERYWHERE IN THE INSTAGRAM AND I JUST CAN GET RM60 THE CHEAPEST.

Will you dare to estimate the price?
Hell yeah, it's only RM40 this is ridiculous!
Why so damn cheap?!!

And i continue my searching when i stopped at this item

This is it!
Acne repair kit!
My acne is way too uncontrollable that i'm getting fed up so i'm damnly have to use this set!
It came with

• 6oz. Acne Facial Cleanser - a deep cleansing and exfoliating wash which prevents pore congestion
• 8oz. Special Cucumber Lotion -Acne healing astringent
• 2oz. Drying Mask - Promotes healing of acne eruptions
• 0.5 oz. Drying Cream -  promotes healing of pimples whilst concealing them
• 1 oz. Drying Lotion  - Shrinks whiteheads overnight

Ouh yeah!!

Well the price is quite high but i don't care. I wanted to try on it yeah!

This is ain't testimonials post , i haven't even using them.
HAHA
But i will buy it right after i buy my tablet.

Business Online

Hello!

Well yeah, i've started my online shop vigorously last week.
Although i still didn't get any customer, i'm happy with what i am doing.
it's really a passion.
But sincerely, i hope to have a tablet so that i can do my job easily.
But nahhh that's not it.
NO EXCUSES IN PASSION.
My target is to have 10 customers before April ends.

So, what i've been selling?
Nahh i won't tell here hahaha.
Because if i do, this personal blog will be my business blog.
Just, i don't want to ruin this.

Btw, my partner is of course Jahara but i don't know if we're still be together after further our studies.
But i really hope she won't stop.
Lol.

Okay that's all, if you really want to know what do i sell,
whatsapp me 01128908253.
I will tell you there.

That One Mysterious Man

Hello!

Ok how should i begin the story with?
As people around me knowing, i am a perlis baby, i lived there for 1 year and moved to Johor for 2 years and came back to Perlis for another 2 years before statically live here in Kedah.
When i am in Kedah, i gain much experience.
I have new friends
I miss the old friends.
Well, that's life.
We come and go.
And here in Kedah is where my puberty strikes and giving me a chance to love a man even though all of those were unrequited love.
I'm not giving any fuck on it anymore

Actually, i have this one man in my mind.
He is always there(in my mind i mean).
Ever since i was 5 years old.
But i can't remember his real name and his face.
I only remember his nickname

Last info about him that i got was 11 years ago, he moved from perlis to cameron highland.
I have to find him.
I want to atleast know how he looks like.
And i really hope that he won't forget me.

Friend

Hello!

Well hahaha this post is way too related to my previous post.
People Come People Go.

Hahahahhaaha (I'm laughing because if i'm not, i might cry)
Ok, i don't know why i love her damn much tho i only knew her for a year less.
She was my dorm mate during my first year of high school.
I don't know her before but when i actually knew her, i don't know, i'm being damnly comfortable.
And it sucks.
It sucks that i love her way too much.
I know that she hates us because we're so not glam as she is.
I know that she always pray to leave Kedah as soon as possible.
I know that. We all know. Everyone knows.
She wrote it in her journal.
I know she purposely wrote it there because she always wrote fanfics for us to read and we will of course accidentally read her prayer.
I know.
EVERYONE KNOWS.
But we act like nothing happened. Why?
Because I love her
Because all of us loves her.
I know that she is living well now.
As much as she desired.
I hate the fact that i can't hate her.
I know i can't be as awesome as her friends now.
I can never be.
But, i want you to know that, i will always love you no matter what happen.
No matter how you hate me, us, for interrupting you life.
I'm sorry.
I'm very sorry.
I will not bother you. Ever again.
I'm sorry for being a friend that you irritate with.
Just so you know, aku terasa weh.
Aku tau hang pura-pura selama ni.
Aku tau weh.
Jangan ingat aku bodoh.
Aku nak atleast hang appreciate kami.
Takpa lah wey.
Semoga hidup hang lebih bahagia sentosa dengan kawan-kawan hang.
Semoga hang punya family takdak masalah dah.
Aku doa hang jadi chef, ada bakery sendiri.
Wish you all the best, Sis.

Till then, xoxo

ASH.

People Come People Go

Hello!

Have u ever imagined to lose people around you?
I mean, we, of course are having a few people by our side and could you imagine when they are gone?
Haha, basically, if family, i might not be able to accept that in short time.
But if it's non related such as friends, yeah friends, i wouldn't mind if they wanted to leave to quit from my life.
Not that i don't appreciate them but if you want to leave, then fucking leave.
I read much at twitter like "When u're 18, u should know that people come and go in anytime" more less like that so i will just yea, i have to accept it. I don't know if i've left anyone that love me or what, i don't know so if i do, i apologize. My bad.

It is not that i wouldn't mind if my friends leave me, i will be in drastic monsoon mode if any of my friends that i love/appreciate leave me just like bang! like that lulz.
But as it says, what can i do if you wanna leave, right?

I don't know why i'm being emotional here because most of my friends are still with me.
Well, this is a mental preparation for me.
Imagine scary things and being emotional all of sudden.
Don't worry much, I'm literally okay. Haha

Till then, xoxo

ASH


p/s : gambaq takdak sebab emo hahahahhaha cam shial

Timetable

Hello!

Okay i have to admit this. It is all my damn fault that my SPM result was a big ass failed.
Dad told me every single day that i have to change.
I have to.
If i want to be a successful woman in the future.

Before this, i HATE time table.
For me, it's up to me when should i do my homework, my laundry, my house cleaning. It's all on me.
But i am totally wrong.
Wait, i still can't follow dad's order for me to sleep before midnight because i don't have my own handphone that i need to steal it from mom or dad's so the right time is when they asleep, midnight.

So now, mom and dad is having a high fever after they came back from Umrah so all the house chores are on my shoulder and this is really tough. i need to do EVERY SINGLE THING so i found the uses of time table is so so so important so that i won't missed out any chores. Thus, i am having my driving class and cooking class and my 3 business so it is so hard for me to make those things be done in one day, everyday. With none help ugh i bet i can be the wife anytime by now.

I actually want to tell dad to not to be worried with the chores but he still expect me to do everything like in a blink of eye. Sincerely, it's so hard, dad. So hard that i could faint because i slept at 4am and woke up at 6am to send Jahara off to her workplace. But i will try my best to not disappoint you both.

Till then, xoxo

ASH

My One Little Hope

Hello!

Well peace yalls!
It's Calum Hood of 5 Seconds Of Summerrrrr

okay, my one little hope.
Actually, i've been hoping this since forever and i don't know, wait, i can't even estimate WHEN will that time comes.
This may sounds funny or u'll be like "Are you that desperate?"
No no, i'm not being desperate here, like i said, i hope.

Haha, i am thinking whether i should write or not because yes, this is funny.

Ok, i've been hoping for atleast one guy realize my existence.
No, wait yes!! of course they know i'm exist. But .... okay straight to the point,
I want atleast one guy give me their heart. AHAHAHAHAHAHHA
I'm not going to fried that heart, seriously i will not.
I am that type of weird girl that NO ONE ever attached to.
And among my friends, i am the only one. HAHA.
Yes, most of my friends, never been in a relationship but hey, at least they got that memories where a guy came and said that he likes them.
I am dead serious.
No one, not a single man ever come to me and be like " hey, u're attractive" HAHAHA ok that's way too cheesy.

You get my point?
Well, my friend once said, "There might be one guy who likes you secretly"
I'm telling this, we, human, got love instinct. Right?
My instinct is dead strong telling me that NO ONE likes me secretly.

Wait, even if there is, WHY THE HELL YOU LIKE ME SECRETLY PLEASE JUST COME OUT AND CONFESS AND wait, i will not accept. Because i've told myself not to be in relationship until i have my own earnings. But still, i WON'T hurt ur heart. Haha. I just want to make sure that i am actually recognize-able.

Okay this post is way too immature of me. But hey, if it happens to be real, that someone likes me secretly, please tell me. I'm deadly wanna know that weird guy.

I'm desperate as fuck to know. Just to fuckin know. Haha

Till then, xoxo.

ASH

Connor Franta

Hello!!

Well, i found myself being very bored that i update blog like everyday but who cares? it's mine tho.

So, it happens to be that just now, i was watching Connor because i forgot to watch last monday's but hey, he post his newest video yesterday, which is TUESDAY. u've been lying Connor!!

Whatever it is, Connor is digging into mypocket because HE RELEASE HIS VERY OWN BOOK!!
You know that i loves reading. And i loves Connor so that was just like, fate? Haha nahh just kidding.
He always recommend books from Audible and i barely read, no i actually haven't read any of his recommendations but he turns out to be the author and i can't... i just.. i NEED to buy it.

 But the thing is, I have the money. But i don't have a freakin credit card!!!!!

The price is affordable, i really thought it will be going to reach hundreds because hey! it's Connor Franta. The book is freakin cheap.

The launch of his book is on 21st April 2015 and he will doing a BOOK TOUR! I know this is ridiculous but can you do the tour in Malaysia too? Haha i will make myself go to the launching.

Okay i know you won't. I will pre-order it but i deadly want your signature in it but that sounds impossible so i will just sign by myself haha. I know your book will be amazing!

So here i want to share Connor's new book, A Work In Progress.

And here's some useful quotes by Connor Franta

Never hold back. Be yourself, be ourself.
Till then, xoxo.

ASH

Life Wishlists

Hello!

I'm going to be very sincere, actually, i'm a gay. Hah!! Dah macam si Connor dalam Coming Out gitu, Haha okay saja bajet.

So, now the topic (cey topic bagai) is Life Wishlists.
This is more less like umm 30 things u wanna do before you die, like that but i just call it life wishlists because i don't know when i'm going to meet Maha Pencipta right? But seriously takdak la sampai 30, kau nak buat apa sampai wish banyak 30, jangan ngengada eh.
 
Okay so, aku rasa most of us dalam dunia ni ada benda yg kita teringin nak buat tapi due to family incomes, kita tak mampu, right? Well, mak bapak kita bukanlah tak kaya just diorang don't have that amount of money for you to spend it leisurely kan. Kalau nak duit, tolonglah cari sendiri. Jangan nak menyusah mak bapak.

So, this is my official Life Wishlists that i think i need to accomplish it BEFORE i am getting married (nak habaq kata cek plan nak kawin umoq 30 keataih lolz).

1. Have RM500,000 in bank account before i reach 25 y/o. This sounds ridiculous but, i know i can do this. i am confident.

2. Have my own cafe by 30y/o. This, yes, i think i can too.

3. Have master in TeSL.

4. Have my own car. I don't care what type of car as long as i buy it with my own money.

5. Have my own house by 28y/o.

6. Travel. Well, travel means everything to me. I've been to only Thailand and Indonesia so no, I will go further. (Dream destinations : JAPAN, EUROPE, KOREA, TURKI) I will go to Japan. With my own money. I don't care going alone. Well preferably, i want to go alone. By myself.

7. Go to umrah with my friends. I REALLY HOPE I CAN ACCOMPLISH THIS.

8. Can speak in mandarin.

9. HAVE CONFIDENCE.



This is a very very selfish wishlists isn't it?
I don't care.
I wont let my youth bring nothing to me.

Till then, xoxo.

ASH

Major Middle Minor Throwback

So, i'm eighteen. Yeah we all know btw. Haha.
When u're eighteen, that means u already ended your school era.
Yes, back then, i always make a countdown on WHEN will i finish school.
Well everybody does it i guess.
And now, the time has passsed.
Sincerely, for the first 2 months, i was NEVER missing the school.
Until i went there again to take my SPM result, that time, i know i miss it to the max.
I miss the teachers. i miss their smiles although those smile were not for me.
I miss being bitchy at school even when i was in the class, at the asrama eating hall, the canteen, in the dorm (always). I miss my friends' smile.
This is not just for the memories in Astech but also at Ibrahim.
I miss lepak with those boys at Ibrahim because i got very few of boys' friend at Astech and i am really really not that close to them.
I miss being immature seriously.
Back then, i fought A LOT.
No kidding.
Form 1 Form 2 Form 3 Form 4 Form 5, u name it.
Being the fighter isn't stressful because you can scream atleast lol.
And those memories are the one i took with me.
They are very precious.
I'm not lying.
Fighting memories are the best because it shows how stupid you were that time.
Well, briefly, i'm sure i already make up with all my so called enemies hahahaha.
So here i will share my memories and let's make it a very very memorable memories.

WARNING!! There will be tons of pictures so make sure to keep scrolling lol.
SECOND WARNING!! There will be tons of my ugly faces so, tap the 'x' if you don't dare enough.
I've warn yalls.

2006

SEKOLAH KEBANGSAAN SERI PINANG.

Just to let you know, that boy with prefect suit(?) , the handsome one was my best friend. We used to skip kelas kafa together lol. And there's my childhood bestfriend Aisyah. Miss her damn much. Serious talk, i still remember her father's phone number. I'm not kidding. But i don't know whether her father still use the same number. It has been 8 years since i met them.

2009

SEKOLAH KEBANGSAAN SUNGAI PETANI.

There's not that much memories with them i don't know why but i still remember them if they suddenly come in front of me and be like " Aina ni aku nama ____ kelas sama ngan hg/ kelas Maju" sorry but seriously aku ingat budak2 6 Jaya ngan 6 Maju ja. hahaha maaf Inovatif Kreatif dan seterusnya seterusnya.

2010-2012

SEKOLAH MENENGAH KEBANGSAAN IBRAHIM

Well, gambar2 tu ada yg tahun 2013 jugak but who cares btw, THEM! IBRAHIMIANS! I actually don't know why i leave such a cool friends seriously, yes, some of them were totally jerks but let the kind shines it all. Sincerely, i am regret to leave this school but at the same time, i cannot accept Biology in my life so i'm not that total regret. The school is awesome. Here, when u said Smk Ibrahim, people be like "WOW!" amazed and all that but yeah, the success of this school actually come from the chinese and indians. i'm not joking. But still, the bond is quite strong here like when i moved to another school, they still remember me. i mean those who not in the same class and those whom i never talked to, the teachers. I'm touched. But it's over now, i'm going back to them though. No one neglecting me. Yay!! I'm grateful. Seriously.

2013-2015

SEKOLAH MENENGAH TEKNIK ALOR SETAR

OKAY, coming here with the thoughts i will change but here, i got into the biggest fight haha but now, we're like brother and sisters, my class consists of 24 girls and 4 boys so with the picture above you can judge briefly how sucks the class will be because all of us are very hingaq bingaq sampai kena banned by the teachers. Ah! There's not only my classmates but my doormmates are also up there. There's too much stories that i think of giving up being a student here but that encourages me to be stronger and probably, less shy? hahaha So, the pictures up there consists of my classmates, doormmates, and drama teammates. This school teaches me how sucks educational system is and how teachers are so not punctual but wants their students to be discipline. I'm telling the truth but hey obviously, not all the teacher. Some of them are. Thankfully, my class teacher was so happening and sporting eventhough she is a ustazah. And yes, here, you know that u actually can rely on someone when u need them.


Done throwback-ing. seriously, i have no will to re-check if the photos are not in orders or what so i just upload them briefly hahaha. Remember, school life is the best.
Till then, xoxo.

ASH